Hate Month

So many things have happened in the last 2,3,4 weeks. its been a blur...

a big, foggy,hazy blurrrrrrrrrrrr....
and here's what I remember from it......

There is no greater reminder of how fast time flies than to remember, what seems like yesterday, when your child (or children) were just babies.

We got rain. I felt like reading my Twiglight Saga again. The weather was very
"Fork-sy".
I remembered, at this time 22 months ago, I was moving into our, now very loud,busy,loving,comfortable home & preparing for our new baby boy Scotty.
I remembered nursing him and playing guitar hero with the kids..... at the same time.

Danny was working in town.

We did our own Thanksgiving at home... for the first time.
I remember it was a lot of work.... but totally worth it to start our own tradition.

A few weeks ago I
thought about the upcoming month, formerly knowns as "hate month" for me.
Yes.... I've dedicated an entire month to things that I "hate". Things & people that are so small and insignificant that I let bother me. and shouldn't. Therefore I let irritation, pet peeves, & unresolved past situations lay unchecked and it morphs into anger and resenment. .... resulting into emotional vomit.
For a few years in a row now I've worked really hard to fight the emptiness or void I feel inside (during October).
I didn't this year. It was acutally a love month for me and before I had time to let anything get under my skin it was Halloween and I only had about 8 more hours to actually get heated about something to hold up my bargain with "hate month".
** November snuck up on me and I believe God intended it to be that way.

In October....
I baked up a tower of cupcakes.
shopped for costumes.
ate with family.
lost my voice.
returned a rented movie late.
ate healthier food.
cried at the doctors office.
cried myself to sleep.
worried.
read on lesson worry.
stopped worrying.
left some laundry in piles.
bought the new Kings of Leon cd.... and thouroughly enjoyed it..... my fav.
thought about being 30.
cheered for Bristol Palin & Jennifer Grey on Dancing with the Stars.
talked to Danny until 2am.
felt like a teenager doing that.
felt like an old woman when i woke up the next morning.
missed my husband until i felt short of breath.

prayed and thanked God for all the things above and then all the things I forgot to mention. I truly am so thankful for hate month ....