almost 30

so Im on my way home from a session this evening when it dawns on me

"Im outta the house. BY MYSELF.
and Im far.
Like an hour away far." =)

Oh LOOK! there's a Starbucks! its a sign! I'll treat myself to a drink (with caffiene) because I dont have to share with anyone...
IIIIIM ALL BY MYSELF =).
I *walk in*, order my drink & sit down to enjoy
("walking in" .... something you can't do with 4 kids ...... okay, you can but YOUR one $3-$5 dollar indulgence turns into an emotional $12-$15 because you had to buy the kids some kind of DEcaffienated drink.) =I

so here I am... ALL ALONE =) and a thought scurries through my mind....... "hmmmmm. I should look up a Forever 21 and see if there is one around here". I say this because the closest Forever21 from where I live is at least 30 minutes away.. that hurts.

I'd better get going. I start walking to the car, its getting late and F21 will be closing soon. Hope I can make it to the nearest one... (wishful thinking).

I walk out of the Starbucks and start toward my truck,look up & lo and behold there is a Forever 21 in the distance. a short distance.

Now I believe in "signs" and I have to say, I felt compelled that this was a "SIGN". Im alone, I have more than enough time, I have a little bit of cash on me, and its so close.

The yellow brick road led me to OZ.

Then feelings of guilt start to kick in. "geez! Mom & sissy aren't here" I feel like Im somewhat betraying them. like Im stealing candy when they aren't looking. its hard to ignore and supress these feelings but I manage to do it somehow.

I walk into the F21 and realize its connected to a mall and right across the way is a Charlotte Russe!

Im dead. I've died and gone somewhere where they have huge "signs" and bright lights. I can only attribute what happened tonight to the universe knowing I'll be turning 30 in a few days.

and let me tell you, 2 adorable skirts & a belt later, it feels so good to almost be 30.