Well I knew I would find myself back blogging sooner or later. I don't really have a fan base except for my Mom.. which she's great and all but as my sister says "you're supposed to love everything I do.. you're my Mom". Which I have found out is not always entirely true in my case with my own children. Maybe in my Mom's case too, she has just perfected the art of encouragement and support no matter how her kids show up at her door. I know not everyone will read this and even if no one reads this I will keep this as a diary to give to my kids at some point. At their graduation from high school, graduation from college (God willing), their wedding.. at least before I die, lets put it that way. Maybe at one of their milestones, or just maybe before I die. I am not scared of death. Okay.... I know I just typed I wasn't scared of death but Im not really sure if I meant it. I don't want to be scared of death. There... that sounds right. I aspire to not be afraid of death but when I think of death I think about meeting Jesus and going to such a glorious place that my mind here on earth can't comprehend how amazingly awesome that will be. But then I think about leaving my kids and family behind..(if that turns out to be the case) and I can't go. I can't go to the place where I'm not scared to die. I feel I have peace in other areas of my life but where does the peace of dying come from. I mean I know where it comes from. It comes from resting in your heavenly Father. but i don't know how to get comfortable enough to rest when it comes to that. I'm sure it will come in time. Nothing worth having (even the peace with dying) happens over night. On a lighter note here is my disclaimer and promise:
Disclaimer: there will be mis-spelled words, sentences that start with "but" and "and". i will not always use correct punctuation or capitalization. i have the tendancy to have run-on sentences, which is a perfectly actual dipiction of my thoughts.
Promise: I promise to always be honest and transparent. I promise to keep this blog thing up to date. I promise to be a wife and a mother, cook, maid, taxi driver.. yadda yadda yadda and all those other things you hear in country songs and "mom poems" but must of all i promise to be a Woman of God & simplicity.. always striving to have the Mary spirit in a Martha world. I also promise to keep my kids off the stairs, in my house, because as well all know..........accidents happen =)
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