a branch of the blessing tree

I'm sitting here staring at this blank space on the computer screen. I'm so blown away .. just really melted into a pool of unworthy mush by how God continues to pour out A-MAZING blessings... whether I have been blessed, or have witnessed someone else's blessing, been apart of blessing someone, what ever branch of the blessing tree it comes from.... i am blessed by it. God continues to take me to places I never knew exsisted in my spiritual walk. I am always so grateful for the people in my life. for EVERYTHING. the lump in my throat and tears in my eyes tell me there are no words.

I was dealing with a difficult situation. I was finding it extremely hard to move on from unresolved feelings. I felt stuck in cement. so stuck in cement and unable to move that I couldn't even remember to move to pick up my kids from school. I was so entrenched in what I was going through I forgot about my kids. the most important anything to me (aside from God) I forgot them... i looked at the clock and "om.gosh. THE KIDS!".. and you know that one time you are late... and it looks like you forgot your kid (which in my case was the absolute truth) and you vow.. 'geez.. i've gotta snap out of it, whats the matter with me.. this is taking over my priorities, this is all i ever think or talk about, if it's making me miserable to think about it.. then think about what the people that are listening to me have to endure. SHA! I'LL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN!'... but sure enough the sun rises, i try to have a postive outlook.. pray in the morning only to find myself sucked right back in.. and forgetting to pick the kids up AGAIN!. Luckily for me God sent an old friend. We don't talk all the time.. kids, family life and what not... but she chatted me and asked if I could offer up some advice for a situation she was struggling with. as she began to go through her worries ...I recognized EXACTLY what she was saying... I was going through the exact same thing. I couldn't believe it! I told her I had a very similar situation and that I didn't know if i was the right person to talk to about it since I was struggling as well. she told me she had been praying and didn't feel herself getting anywhere. I prayed that God would give me the right words to encourage her to see her situation to the end... God moved. I told her just when she feels she is at her breaking point and can't try any harder.. when she wants to give up... thats when she needs to work her hardest... and that giving it to God is the only way to have peace. I heard once in a church message "God will never give you anything bigger if you can't be faithful with what you have now". Our own desire to control our situation may be a test for something bigger God has planned for one of us.... or both of us. But we will never be trusted with anything bigger if we don't trust God with the small stuff. and im sure both of our situations, looking on it now, was pretty small. I'd had prayer for my situation earlier in the week and She was my answer to prayer. Hopefully I was part of the answer to her prayer as well.