squinty eyes

do you remember when you made that first big purchase? when you were 18? just moved out? or just engaged? just married? just went off to college? for me... I was 18 & just married. My strapping, young, handsome husband and I were pacing over a coffee table. whenever it was for you and whatever your purchase was ...do you remember fretting over making the right decision of buying it or not? was there a better deal? should I get this instead of that? trying to establish a budget for yourself. the perspiration that came when making the walk to the check out? then came the feeling like you were dancing on the highest peak of the brightest rainbow when you got to the register to have the cashier inform you that you stayed within your budget? *DID* the cashier know my budget? it felt like everyone in the store knew my budget and would be naturally waiting for me at the register to see if I made it. after the clenched fists and squinty eyes (which naturally squinty eyes run in my family) you got the news that you stayed within your budget...fists still clenched and eyes still squinty but for an entirely different reason. you made your first real purchase, that would turn out to be an investment. there would be like a mariachi, or a full piece band to help you celebrate...the other customers would parade around you with party favors. confetti would fall from the ceiling of the store and maybe you would win a free trip to disneyland! well even if all of that didn't actually happen... it was happening in your head. I forgot what that felt like. Thank you Sissy for being 19 and letting me dance on your brightest rainbow with you.