buy it already!

Im the girl who puts a hundred things in her cart. starts her walk to the registers and starts taking stuff out. I talk myself out of things. I'm NO TORIOUS for doing this.

going through the store it sounds like.....
"oh i like that. i like this.. oooooo. that is sooooo adorable. uh yeah! i could totally put that there. mmmmhmmmm the boys would LOVE that. Danny's gonna kill me."

walking to the register it sounds like.....
"uh.. i don't really need that. if i get this then I'll have to buy that and then it won't really be the bargain I was originally pulled in to buy it for. I can just sub what i already have for this. I can totally make that at home. Danny will kill me if i buy that."

I'm a 'talker outer'
My sister insists.. 'JUST BUY IT ALREADY!'
but i can't. I do this with everything. I talk myself out of it.

When i went to have my kids ( been pregnant 5 times & have 4 children) each time I was pregnant on my way to delivery or what not, I was talking myself out of it.
**little late for that doncha think**
looking for a way to get out of it. to put it back on the shelf or hang it back on the rack.??

imma chicken. big chicken. the yellow stripe down my back clashes with everything I wear.

but thinking back..... there were times were I wasn't hesitant. times that I never second guessed myself or my purchase. three times in specific.

1) the day I married my Danny.
(we've both second guessed some things since then)... but never the day I walked down that short isle in my jeans and said " i do ". I remember that day and there was never an analyze or a scrutinize or a second guess occupying the tiniest corner of my head or heart.

2) my faith in God. He has proved me too many times over for me to ever doubt him. I'm suprised he didn't second guess me when he put me in his shopping cart.

3) the day I first tasted a bordeaux egg from See's Candy shoppe.

I over analyze everything and then the extra stuff that comes with everything. I am a prisoner to my own scrutiny. I just need to 'buy it already!'

I believe God is at work in my life, and in the life of my family & friends. I'm so grateful God didn't put me me back on the shelf, or hang be back on the rack. Im so humbled that he bought me with the ultimate price.
the majority of my purchases come from the 'CLEARANCE RACK'. God didn't wait for this second guessing over analyzing nervous laugher to go on clearance.
** God bought me at full price.**
time for me to look at God's purchase, pattern myself after that, and just 'buy it already!'