top of the world

even when I don't see myself or feel like im on top of the world... I am.

on the top of the world there is homework on the table,
empty or half empty cups on the table,
dishes in the sink,
blankets on the couch,
laundry piled up,
unmade beds,
toothpaste on the counter and oozing out of the tube.

on the top of the world there are old dusty candles,
unread books, unsharpened pencils,
and no toilet paper on the rolls in the bathroom.
there is a T.V blaring, a booked up calendar marked up with pen everywhere.

on the top of the world there are kids constantly in the kitchen wandering around like starving children.
there is a substantial sized pile of mess swept up in the corner, behind the door.
there are no shoes on the top of the world.
there is arguing, bickering and disagreements on the the top of the world.
The song "Stairway to Heaven" plays at the top of the world.

on the top of the world i make dinner and not everyone is crazy about it.
there is sun,cold, wind, rain,chiliness, hail, blue skies,briskness, silver linings, and warmth.
there is a place for scrapbooking in the garage on top of the world.
sometimes there are skimpy breakfasts on top of the world.

on the top of the world i touch my babies everyday, share their laughter, share their tears.
I feel my husband and his strong hands, and look into his heartwarming, big hearted, soft&cozy, "it feels like home" eyes.
On the top of the world I talk to and see the people that matter most.
I talk to God there. God hears me when Im on top of the world or down in the valley.
and when im down in the valley im still on top of the world.

on top of the world my senses are heightened. On top of the world I am aware. on top of the world I hold on to things tighter and hold them closer. on top of the world i am most gratefull because i haven't fell off.

im on top of the world because i know what it took to get here. Im on top of the world because of the people that are with me.
I am on top of the world because my mom loves me for who I am, no rules, regulations, or restrictions. unconditional.
Im on top of the world because I have such an example to pattern myself after.
im on top of the world because the friends I have are irreplaceable, because they all contribute something special and extremely extraordinary.

I am on top of the world because I am here. in this house. down the street from my mom, dad, sisters & brothers. surrounded by love, belonging, family, comfortablness, incomprable joy, familiarity. here, on top of the world.