Spent

im spent.
the time i spent on the phone with a crazy, psycho, low balling, money ransoming, creepy Iranian voice box, stalker calling guy.
the time i spent with the police.
the time i spent a nervous wreck.
the time i spent at the desert.
the time i spent watching, not just my boys ride but my girl too.
the time i spent spending time with family.
the time i spent seeing, and planning new photo shoot locations.
the time i spent trying to recover on Monday from being spent over the weekend.
i was spent from watching 2 extra kids this week.
spent from planning for some upcoming events.
spent because i knew i hadn't spent enough time on doing other things that needed to be done... spent just thinking about them.
today i couldn't help it.
i spent a good 2 hours on the couch in a truly blissful sleep.
(i didn't understand how my husband could just lay on the couch and take a nap so easy as the world keeps spinning,chores are growing and life keeps going....... today was the day I connected with him. I understand NOW.
it was extremely easy to listen to my eye lids and be influenced, persuaded, somewhat seduced into my couch and into the forbidden nap.
whatever time i've spent thinking, planning, watching, sleeping, worrying, talking, yelling, cooking, cleaning, hugging, kissing, washing, drying, calling, asking, shooting, feeding, driving, walking, riding... nothing compares to the time my maker allowed me to spend with my Danny and my babies.
I realized no matter whats happening, no matter how busy I get, how overwhelmed i feel, in every situation, I want my hands, feet, thoughts, mind, heart and words to be those of God. To reflect the love he has for me and the love I for him. I can keep spending when I have God as my main,ultimate resource. I can't spend enough time being grateful and sooooo thankful for the blessings he pours out on me. even the blessing of being spent.

After all he has spent WAY more time on me ....
....and he hasn't even taken his nap yet.