29 years of..

I didn't know when I was 4 years old, when this picture was taken, that I would be here at 29, married for over 10 years, been through 5 pregnancies, had 4 of those babies, and overcome and acheive so many things I never thought were possible.

I have been alive, just shy, for 3 decades.
I remember when I was 7 or 8. I couldn't wait to be in the double digits.. 10
I remember when I was 10 or 11. I couldn't wait to be a teenager.... 13
I remember when I was 13 or 14. I couldn't wait to be older & have more freedom..16
I remember when I was 16. I coudln't wait to be an adult and do what I wanted....18
I remember when I was 18. I had my first child.
Every other birthday I had seemed to speed by. Like it was a dragster at the county raceway.

but whenI went to bed last night.... i couldn't sleep.
I thought maybe I had stayed up too late on the computer and thats why i coudn't fall asleep.
I thought my brain was running with so many things that I wanted to do.... NEEDED to do that it wouldn't turn off and thats why I couldn't fall asleep.
I kept thinking of people I loved and people I missed at that very second... maybe thats why I coudln't go to sleep.
Then there was the dog barking outside from the neighbors house... perhaps that was why I couldn't fall asleep.

After considering all of this.....i realized................I was excited.
Excited to wake up and be 29. Excited to start a new year in the skin of a 29 year old.Excited to think of all the possibilities, opportunities, and memories I would make as a 29 year old.

Excited to think that God knew 29 years ago where I would be and the kind of excitement he would create in me for being where I am and who I am today.

excited that 29 years of blessing isn't all he has planned for me.