Shane-bug

I dont know how to look at you and ever imagine how I will let you get older.
your birthdays keep coming but I can't ever imagine a day where I will truly celebrate them without some sort of sadness in my heart.

I . LOVE . YOU . SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE.
I see your heart in everything you do.
your gentleness, compassion, your lovingness.

when I think of you im overwhelmed with a feeling of keeping you like you are now, in this moment, forever.

I pray for you to grow in God's love.
to keep all the qualities you have now as my 9 year old boy and carry them with you through adulthodd... qualities so awesome in you now I hope you will teach your children how to love like you do.

you are my Shane-bug
my snuggly-bear
my fish.

I love you so much my heart could explode.
I will forever just want to hold you and cradle you in my arms for as long as you'll let me.
to keep your hand in mine for however long you will hold mine.
you are so awesome and you don't even have to work at it.
it comes naturally to you.. its so easy for you to be so kind.... so easy for people to love you it makes me cry.

i can't help but cry my eyes out and loose my breath thinking of how I can keep these memories forever. to preserve you somehow.

I love that you love nature and God's creations. That you have respect for all life.
you love animals and that you work so hard in school. I love that you love music. that you play the guitar to calm your anxious heart.
I love that you know how to give the best hugs, and that you love to skateboard and dance.
I love that you don't mind being silly with the ones you love most.
I love that you still kiss me goodbye at school and shout " I love you, have a good day!" when I drop you off.
I love that you still want that.
I love that you have this innocence about you that makes you love everyone and everything whole heartedly.


but what I love most of all is that smile you try to hold back when your really happy or excited. you try to hold it back so much that it ends up being the biggest smile ever. it shows your heart and melts everyone elses.

my heart will always be a big melty pool of gooey love for you.

I LOVE YOU AND NO MATTER HOW BIG YOU EVER GET YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY BABY.

XO times infinity, Mom