10 x 10=

i feel way too emotional to blog. im ALL ovah the map. Seth turned 10 years old. big deal for me. just is.

what happens now? the first 10 years went by so fast ... does the next 10 years happen when i go to bed tonight and wake up in the morning. Im afraid to blink. afraid to close my eyes.

somebody will sneak 10 years by me and wont even know it.

wow. if feel this way about years i must not even be aware of hours, minutes, or seconds.

i feel aware but im so not aware. if it's been 10 years i am drastically UN.aware.

i thought i held on tight for the first 10... im gonna be scratchin' and kickin' up dirt trying to hang on for dear life as the next 10 race by.

my baby is not a baby anymore. not by the definition of a baby in a dictionary.
but he'll always be MY baby. even when he's 10 x 10. he'll still be my baby.