i've not blogged lately because i haven't been very positive. not mad, not angry.. just not positive. If i have nothing positive to bring to the table then it's always best that i just zip it, lock it, and put it in my pocket (as my Shane reminds me).
something is changing though. i can't put my finger on it but its changing. I feel it might have something to do with Seth turning 10. next year he's in fifth grade and then around in these parts they consider 6th,7th,8th as jr. high school. And he will be there before I get the chance to turn completely around.
i cut my hair. short. dangerously short.
danny started working nights again. i feel like a hater.
i have work to do. tons of work to do.
Rozzy is growing up way too fast and so is her mouth.
Shane always just wants to snuggle...i know that is coming to an end soon.
trying to work on my weight. lifestyle changes. i can see changes... just not fast enough.
i guess this blog should be labeled 'impatience' ...
feel like i need to get away. but then i feel like i need to stay. want to stay.
i was tempted this weeekend. tempted to do a lot of things. the devil really knows my weak spots, my cracks. knows how to work those temptations and dangle them in front of my face. I didn't give into them. i stayed strong, and for that i should be happy. but i do believe the best way the devil is getting at me is by this discontentment i feel right now. and **that** above temptation may be the begininning of a victory for him.
sneaky. very.... very. sneaky.
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